Pruning

Where is the balance between living to be a witness, to be light to this dark world, and of quiet, personal time with the Lord?  Does everything have to be poured from us?  Is it selfish to keep things back, but it is deflection if I am also pouring out?  Maybe I am not fully realizing that I am in equal need of everything I am sharing with others…God, increase Your reality in my life. Lead me in the way I should go and keep my eyes fixed upon You.  Increase my trust that You ARE good and perfect.  Hide me in Your hand and teach me how to receive Your love.                   I feel like I am always in fight mode, that I just want to rest.  Help me to look at the burden, but not try to carry it all myself.  Cease any striving. Help me to sit and just ride up the mountain, and not try to labor up it myself.