WOO!!

Fall semester is DONE!!!!!!!!!!!  PRAISE GOD!!!!!    it has been a great semester overall… not too stressful and i feel like ive learned alot and God has done some amazing things!  Thank You, Lord!

It snowed yesterday, on the last day of exams for me and we still had to go in like 4 inches of snow and then lol christa and i walked home..:p  we went to food lion for a few minutes on the way and it took us about an hour..  i felt very laura ingalls =D    so because of the snow, i was delayed one day from going home, but it’s ok.. last night we watched Charlie Brown Christmas and A White Christmas and ate alot lol so it was relaxing, and I just cannot believe it’s over!!  woo!!   only one more semester left.. i cant believe it…

Transformation

It is so amazing to say, but I am not the same as I was at the beginning of this semester.  You hear about believers saying that all the time, and i have to admit that i was a little skeptical , not of them , but of the changing factor… i didnt really want to change..what would it look like? would i still be the same person? would i still like the same things?   but now i understand, at least a little of what that means. to be a different person. and it’s beautiful.  thank You, Jesus.  thank You for being so faithful.  at the beginning of this semester i was broken still in places i didnt know, and held captive by things i didnt realize were still there..but,  it has been a semester of liberation.. God, please continue this process.. it has been such a sweet time. so special. God, please do not ever let me leave this place.  Thank You for fighting for me.  Lord, bring into a deeper reality of Your fullness, Your love.  Fill me to overflowing and seal me. Help me to set my face like a stone, determined to do Your will.   I cant even really believe You have been so gracious to do this in my life. I think back to the night after our summer party and just weeping by the fire. Weeping for things I thought i was healed of a few years ago, weeping for your lost children, weeping of a brokenness that I didnt even know was there. I have learned to forgive. I have learned not to displace His love.  I realized that any revelation the Lord might reveal, or even just reading His Word, I would see who I know that it would apply to, to be able to help them out without realizing that i need to read it for me.  I need to be healthy.  I was feeling such a disconnect between knowing and believing of His love in my head, but not really knowing in my soul of that reality.  This was confirmed by a word from the Lord in my heart as well as a prophet that came to this area last week.  One thing Pastor John said was I was hurting/ lacking more than those I was helping; that i was giving out of my lack. And up until this semester, I didnt even realize this was so. but that had begun to change, he said that I was not the same as I was last year when he came and that I would begin to give out of a place of enrichment because I have been enriched. adorned.

Another major thing that has happened this semester, just about a month and a half ago was I had to purposefully let go of an unhealthy friendship.  Jesus, thank You for walking with me.  Thank You for taking me by the hand.  Thank You for standing in front of me, protecting me.  I can’t believe things are so different than they were back in the end of october.  I cannot even believe my heart and soul were so tangled in what they should not have been. and for so long.  and I thought I was ok..Oh Lord, thank You for directing my life and having the grace to pursue me, fight for me, desire my whole heart. and I just pray that the intercession that was done is redeemed and received as offered with a pure, Christ-like heart.  I believe that if nothing else from that time, that it was You placing a burden and that chains of satan were broken in Your name.  God, please continue to give me wisdom and protect me from fear.  Guide my thoughts because greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world.  Continue to break the soul ties by the blood of Jesus.  I know You will perfect that which concerns me.

I have learned the beauty and power of Truth. and the passion to fight for it, to speak about it in the authority of His name.

I have felt the waves of glory. Hallelujah, I have learned the frailty of our human bodies.

I have learned that time spent with the Lord is never wasted time.. you know sometimes, when you just are with someone too much, or feel irritated with yourself for lingering too long..it can never be that way with Jesus.  Time with Him is never wasted time.

Lord, teach me to love as You have loved me.  Please continue to fill me and make Your love such a reality. such a tangible, evident, inextricable part of my being. Take me deeper with You, Lord.  Thank You for the xa family, and the blessing they have been this semester especially.  Please Lord, direct my next steps and show me what You want for a more focused intercession.  Take away anything in me that is not of You.    Please give me a fully surrendered heart that accepts with joy.

 ~ “Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life..”  psalm 23:6a